I haven’t blogged in forever….it’s wild. My last post was back in Jan 2020. The Jasmine then had no idea what was to come. Not only did we experience a global pandemic that impacted literally everyone’s lives, but we also walked through a hard health season with my oldest daugther, Dakota. Her health journey started in July of 2020, to which we finally received her diagnosis in Sept of 2020 after doing some procedures. We had no idea what the last year and some months would bring us though.
Along the way, I’ve been wanting to write about all that I’ve been processing through but I wasn’t ready. Her diagnosis would quickly bring on the challenges of failed meds, insurance fighting the GI’s recommendations, transfusions, learning to advocate, 5 hospitalizations, major surgery, and even being confronted with death, and more.
It’s been 7 months since her surgery, and I’m finally at the place where I can breathe…..I think the last 7 months I’ve been holding my breath and didn’t even realize it.
I have no intentions or hopes for what this space will look like other than for this to be a safe space for me to share….to share where I’m at mentally, the day to day, and of course what I’m learning in the midst of a season where I have no control over all of the unknowns that it comes along with UC.
So friend, I hope you will follow along. That my rawness will be met with love, empathy and grace.
So I end with this small reminder…..healing doesn’t look one way. Healing may never be something we attain on this side of Earth. I’m learning to release and accept what I can’t change. And instead choosing to be present in the moment, in the midst of all of the procedures, dr. appts, blood draws, and even more surgeries. UGH…..
Until next time…
Be well friend!
Jasmine Lopez