“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” -Isaiah 26:3
It's been a few weeks since I've blogged. I had to take a break due to Jeremy getting in a head on collision, that thankfully left him some what okay (no broken bones) but our car was totaled. Needless to say these past 2 weeks have been quite challenging, and triggering for all of us, and all for completely different reasons.
I have to admit that I didn't realize that when circumstances came, I'd have feelings about it, but didn't dig deeper to see what the lie was that's tied to the feeling.
Yesterday at therapy we were able to dig deeper, and for me, it all boils down to TRUST.
Trusting that God will provide, that He's really with me, and that He would choose me and so much more.
Everything in my adult self as I'm typing says, "How can that be?!?"
But my inner child is scared, all alone, and thinks everyone will leave her. So she pulls in to avoid feeling, and then my outer child is left acting all wild, and out of my normal character.
But yesterday's session brought such a sense of hope and freedom. Because now that I'm aware of my survival/coping skills, I'm at a place of accepting that I want nothing more than my little girl to find her freedom, to heal, to grow up and become fully developed.
So I want to share what I learned with you guys:
1. When circumstances come, they will bring forth feelings. We have the choice to feel or shut down.
2. Feelings are different than beliefs, and we need to be able to identify the difference. Naming the feeling, will help lead you to discovering what the core belief is. For example, "I'm feeling angry and frustrated because......, (you won't provide, you left me, I'm alone.)" Allow yourself to answer that question.
3. When we identify the belief (which is usually rooted in a lie) is when Jesus can come in.
4. Ask Jesus a question about the belief. Like, "I believe I'm so alone, am I really alone?!?"
5. Jesus begins to heal us. It's in that moment where He will reveal His truth.
For me, He showed me I'm not alone, and that indeed I can trust him. My little girl embraced Him ever so tight, and didn't let go. I felt instant comfort, and peace.
I pray that this helps you to see just how much you are loved by the Father. I hope that when you are feeling something, that you would dig deep, and identify really what's going on.
Thanks friends for reading!!!!
-Jasmine